Night walk

I finally got the courage to pay a woman to walk me in public at night wear a dress heels pants mask least collar and diaper it was OK I walked at night in high heel boots and shoes before ilbut different with a femdom then half way back I stumbled cause of the high heel and took a second before I started to walk again she got mad face and started yelling at me fucking walk my face went red thinking people would come see why a women was yelling so loud late at night on a pretty crowded residential neighborhood I thought id be seen by alot of people and or she would drop the leash and leave me there not letting me get my male clothes from her place cause I would keep up with her in this high heels so standing there embarrassed feeling stupid to do this session humiliation and most of all helpless all those feels while standing on a sidewalk I could feel my dripping cum in the diaper under my dress the biggest rush and turn on I ever had now I want to do it again but more extreme this time no mask heavily make skimpy satin dress handcuffs with the leash and collar blackmail tasks give her my phone and facebook login and some sissy Pic to post along with whatever.ones she take sure the walk the demands she will post if I refuse any of her demands on my face and I will not be able to remove them cause she changed to pass code I really never want to be exposed not fair to my family so I'll be completely helpless forced to do a sadistic goddess grossest most humiliation degrading demand with out be able to refuse also a cash bonus if I do so she will try hard to break me and yes it risky and extreme but that feeling but this up muck more intense and ongoing for the whole session me looking ridiculous so nervous shaken scared this female will ruin my life if I refuse or even piss her off and can also just be left with my leash tied to something if she feels like it cause I'm getting a sadistic short fuse pitch female who will flip out fast only one limit and nothing illegal but i'm my worst fear my only limit won't be broken if I refuse looking at her ready to get me my next task. Me shaking stand in there scared. I'm feeling like I'm gonna cry. Or be dead after her telling me what I have to do and that's my ultimate fantasy and all I can think about every hour of the day for over a year