Sissy embarrassment

About a year ago I finally got a walk to dress me up at night leash collar and did a public walk leaving my stuff at her place I stumbled half way back and she started yelling ay me to ducking walk my face went red with embarrassment thought it would attract people or she would just drop the leash and take off not letting me get my male clothes leaving me to walk home in a dress I felt regret right away and felt stupid degraded and helpless standing the on a public side walk in a dress high heels diaper under the dress waiting for people to start coming out while she takes off i almost felt like crying and I might cry only if a close family member dies so it takes a lot but we started walk and the good feeling outweigh the bad and was.dripping cum in the diaper not I want a more extreme sissy public blackmail humiliating sissy with tasks my hard limit is never want it broken is public or online exposer but I want the punishment if I refuse any of her demands and some money so that would leave me helpless with no choice but to do her humiliating tasks already telling her before we start I want her to be very sadistic hateful and short fuse giving her my phone the has access to my facebook letting her change both the locks creep and forced passwords and taking same pics of me dressed up before we start also handcuffed and no mask this time but heavy makeup a skimpyier dress I want that feeling back and for it to going on for more the session I think ill cum a few times hands free and that's all I can think about almost every hour of the day it's very risky and wouldn't do it before but now i can't wait to find goddess statistic enough to make me do the most grossest degrading humiliating demand while scared ill piss her off and she leaves me somewhere or outs me anyway not other limits she can tell me to lay down while she asks people to spit and piss in my mouth or worst no limits whatevere he task is won't turn me on.What will her a sexy but evil goddess putting me though hell and enjoying it lol I might cry and cum at the same time