Took a risk

I'm a very closeted bi man. Married and divorced twice and neither wife ever suspected that occasionally I'd have secret sex with men. This happened years ago during my first marriage. We were in a pretty large spiritual community and at this point in my life I was trying to be "faithfully straight" and rarely had encounters with men which I always felt shame and regret about. But I'd discovered rest areas and other places where men would cruise and so after long stretches of monogamy I'd sometimes give in and maybe meet briefly with a man. It'd been a couple of years and my masturbatory fantasies were mostly about past experiences or over Penthouse letters about men with men. So this evening we had dinner with a couple who were moving to the east coast the next day. They were friends we'd known for a few years and the wife was leaving early the next morning and he was going to drive back leaving later in the morning. After dinner we went to our place and he and I smoked a joint as the women had wine in the kitchen. We were out back in the yard and as the pot kicked in I started to feel horny. . I later felt that it was the pot and that I hadn't done anything for quite awhile but I started to wonder how he might react if I tried anything with him. We were good friends and I'd never felt anything sexual between us but he was a tall handsome man and a good musician and there in the backyard my heart started to beat faster. I'd always been very careful about not letting anyone in our tight knit community know about my interest in men and I knew that it was very risky but they were leaving the next day and we may never cross paths again. I moved us further into the back yard where it was darker and after a bit I decided to take the risk. I started to talk about being horny and what he liked sexually and as we talked I moved closer and at some point my hand moved down between us and I gently let the back of my hand brush against his crotch. I could barely breathe not knowing what he might do. Conversation stopped and neither of us moved for a moment but then as it picked up again I felt him push gently against my hand. Our voices lowered and as it turned more suggestive and flirtatious I felt his cock start to swell and soon turned my hand so I could squeeze and slide my fingers along the bulge in his jeans. I could see our wives in the house and when I knew it was safe I got closer and then slid down on my knees and quickly we had his cock out and in my mouth in one swift movement. It was happening so fast that I still wasn't sure if he was ok with what I was doing but his cock filled my mouth and I could tell that he was quite erect and hard. We both kept an eye on our wives in the bright kitchen but as we got into what we were doing our focus shifted till he was holding my head tight and grunting softly and I gasped and slurped as his cock thrust into me. I was crazy nervous the whole time but was glad I took the risk. He had a lovely cock , it was the biggest cock I'd ever tasted at that point and I could tell that he was enjoying the blowjob I was giving him. I was still very nervous about our wives possibly coming out and discovering us but at some point he gently took the lead and for a good fifteen or twenty minutes he held my head and softly called me names and gave me instructions until finally he fed me a huge hot load and then pulled me to my feet. We went into the house and the evening ended as normal. I knew his wife was flying out early the next morning so I drove over just after seven and went in without knocking. He was still in bed and mostly still asleep as I lifted up the covers and joined him. He was face down as I slid naked on top of him. I went down on him till he stopped me so he could do me and that morning before he left I got to suck him off again and then I fucked him and came in his asspussy