the beginings

hen I suddenly found myself single the only release available to me was masturbation. So I did it a lot and used quite a bit of porn to help. As time went by I found myself wondering what it would be like to suck a cock. At first those thoughts scared me but they didn't go away. I wanted to act on the desire but this was before Grindr and other such things so I really didn't know how to find someone to suck.

As time went by I became so obsessed I tried to suck myself. Of course I had tried when I was younger but only once was I able to touch the head with my tongue. This time I tried a different position: I put my legs up over my head and pulled down on my ass. After a few tries the head was between my lips and I got my first taste of cock.

I spent the next few nights doing this but used my normal methods to cum. Still I really wanted to suck someone. That made me decide I should taste my own cum to see how I'd react. The only problem was losing interest after cumming. Being really horny one night I decided I'd cum with my lips around the head so I couldn't chicken out. I tried to cum but there was a lot of stress in that position and I couldn't. The solution was to back off a few inches and I shot directly into my mouth.

I found the taste to be a bit weird and it felt like I had cum stuck in my throat for a few hours. The next night I did it again and several nights after.

Eventually I managed to suck someone. I mostly remember how it wasn't what I had expected but I loved doing it. We traded off that night until we both jacked off to cum.

That night was a one time thing and I was back to wondering how to find a cock to suck. Eventually I ended up going to video booths in adult bookstores and sucking through the gloryholes. Nobody came in my mouth during that time. That is until one night a strong desire to have the guys I was sucking cum in my mouth. I worked to get him to cum and finally felt the spurts hitting the back of my throat. After swallowing I finished myself off and left.

One night all the booths with gloryholes were in use so I went into a booth without one. While watching a video there was a knock on the door. When I opened the door a guy wanted to join me and I let him in.

After locking the door he pulled out his cock. It quickly got hard and started leaking a flood of precum. This really got me horny. Then he pushed the video select button until he found a channel with two guys fucking.

Looking back I'm sure my lack of objection was taken as permission. He got behind me and rubbed my ass through the shorts I was wearing. This made my head feel light and my legs felt weak. He then pulled my shorts down and placed his cock in my crack.

The huge amount to precum he was leaking lubed my crack while he fucked it. This made me feel things I had never felt before. Especially when the head of his cock rubbed past my hole. A yearning to be filled built up in me. I might have said something if my brain was working but it wasn't.

He then used his knees to get me to move my legs apart more. With his hand on his cock he positioned the head at entrance. The heat of it made a feeling race from my ass to my nipples. I felt some pressure and the head slowly opened me.

With the head halfway in he started doing little thrusts. Each thrust got more of him in until the entire shaft was inside me. When he started to really fuck me it was my turned to leak lots of precum. I'm not sure how long this went on but when I started cumming my vision went dark. It was the most intense orgasm of my life.

When it ended I could barely walk. I managed to stumble out to my hoping nobody saw the wet spots on my clothing. For the next couple of weeks I would get hard from thinking about what had happened. I knew I would do it again.