The Longing

This story is kinda two parts. It's about the Longing I have for the feeling of the first time I had my cock in a man's mouth. I was 18 straight never even thought about something happening with a guy. Back in 1985 that was definitely a no no. So back then arcade games were making a big impact most corner stores and 7-11's had a couple of arcade games in them. Well my 7-11 had 3 in it and we had a group of us that would hang out there and play the games pretty much all night long. We were friends with the girl that worked the over night shift. One night every one left except me I'm playing one of the games and talking to Annie and this older guy comes in Annie knows him so we are all chatting and after a little while he asks me if I would like to smoke a joint being 18 and loving smoking at the time I said sure.

We hopped in his car and off we went as we are driving around we are just shooting the shit smoking and he says he wants to stop and see a friend of his so I say sure why not. So we stop at his friends work and we just hang out on the front steps of his buddy's work and after a little bit off we go again driving around Philly at 3 am in areas that are not the greatest to be in. Now at this time we have been driving a good while he decides to go get more w**d. While we are driving our conversations were all over the place.

He asked me if he paid for it would I like a blow job being 18 and horny all the time I said sure. So he takes me to the area where the hookers hang out. He pulls up to a corner and a couple of girls walk over and he is like how much for you to take care of my nephew. well while he is talking to her I realize that is a guy in drag. So I tell him to leave that it's a guy so he pulls off and as we are now heading back to 7-11 we are still chatting and since the hooker was a guy he asks me about being gay I tell him I'm straight he says he is as well. But as we are driving after a few minutes he reaches over and rubs my dick it freaks me out and I'm not sure what to do since its really late and I'm not in an area that I can just jump out of the car. I said you told me you weren't gay he said I lied he reached over again and grabbed me again as he is now telling me how awesome it is being gay. Anyway he pulls over on a side street and parks and he is now rubbing my now extremely hard cock. My body is betraying me I should not be hard but I am harder then I have ever been. he ask's me if I ever thought about it and I say I have. He reaches over and undoes my pants and pulls out my cock it feels amazing in his hand. he leans over and for the first time I feel his mouth go over the head of my cock that rush was like nothing I had ever felt before. He took my cock completely in his mouth and it was scary and so good all at once I didn't last long he was the first person to make me cum sucking my cock. It felt so good and so wrong at the same time. I put my cock back in my pants and he took me back to 7-11 I got out of the car and pretty much ran into the store Annie was like after you left I realized who you went with. Anyway after that night I made sure to avoid him whenever he was around.

But over the years I have thought about him and that feeling that longing for it again but it never happens. I have thought about it and when I do I still get super hard. I think about that the first time his mouth took my cock that extreme feeling of me cumming in his mouth. Now every time something happens with a guy it is not even close to that. But I often wonder if one night when I'm not expecting it I have a guy that just makes a move on me. And I have that feeling again.