Thoughts that keep coming back

Mid 90’s Been with my GF a while now and we’re in a great relationship. Still in our 20’s we fuck like rabbits she’s got an amazing body long sexy legs small tits Gorgeous ass in a mini skirt. Sex was great & I tried to bury my thoughts from first male experience. Bury thoughts out of my mind and I’d be working on the computer or on eBay and next I know I’m thinking of a man sucking my cock. My GF sucks but nothing like he did women like to wrap their hand around the shaft and suck the tip still haven’t had one that swallowed my cum on purpose : )
Every time I get head my mind would go to that night in his truck. So on the computer GF in another room the chat get open I found men in my area but i didn’t want my second encounter with someone to close by that could out me. I eventually found someone about 45 minutes away. We chatted back and forth turning on our cameras always just seeing each other’s cocks as we played late at night in dark room trying not to get caught by our girls. Months went by and hunting season is here we’ve talked about meeting if thing happen to fall in line.
I tell my GF I’m going hunting pack my truck and kiss her see you in a couple days.
I hoped on the road heading to the country. Cell phones were not real popular yet (the brick model was new) most people still using land lines and pay phones. My 45 minute drive seems like longer as my mind is going wild. What am I doing I’m straight and I’m planning on meeting a guy for jerking and possibly head. The whole ride I was thinking of bailing out. As I got to the small towns we on the way I stopped and rang his phone I didn’t want to chicken out and I alway face my fears. It rang 4 times I thought he was not there and then I (hello) voice didn’t match my imagination but he was 10 houses up the road . Shocked he’s that close I’d be right there. I hung up and started the truck slowly looking for house number in the dark. I pulled in his driveway the door opens & a shorter chubby man came out he invited me inside. He definitely wasn’t what I was expecting he was kind of nerdy but I’d seen his cock online and it was nice for what I’ve seen so far in my inexperienced. He didn’t waste any time lead me to the bedroom asked me show him my cock then to strip completely naked as he was dropping his pants. My experience so far was touching a man’s cock for about 5-10 seconds and being sucked off over a year ago.
Now I’m standing naked in a stranger bedroom watching him undress guiding me what to do next I can’t focus my thoughts on what to say I’m just trying to get a hold of being naked with a guy & he’s face to face holding my cock so I did what he did I cup his cock started jerking back and forth slowly and softly. He was shorter and he started kissing my chest & playing with my chest hair. He asked if I wanted to lay on the bed & 69. I said I’d try but never sucked cock. We got on he bed I was facing him as he climbed on his cock was right there. I just open my mouth & took it in as he was taking my cock in his mouth. I’m can’t believe what is going on my mind is racing again I’m supposed to be a straight man & I’m sucking a cock. Thoughts are flashing. I realize I taste his precum & he had a musky smell being my first time sucking cock I didn’t know what to expect. We laid their 5-10 minutes he wasn’t as good as my first experience but still better then any woman I’ve been suck off by so far. My thoughts finally got the best of me & I busted first telling him Im going to come he finished me on his chest that pushed him over & he shot his cum on my chest/chin. Gave we a wash cloth & as soon as I was cleaned guiding me out the door. I drove to my buddies cabin there was 6 of us chatting casually drinking I got up went to bathroom I could smell him on my face now I’m buzzed & I think they can smell it to & they all know I sucked cock. I fantasized all weekend see story 3