Young and dumb

When I was 18 I finally had the freedom. So I started dating girls which I enjoyed but I always liked boys too. So I started hanging out with this guy he was older mid twenties chubby brown a bit feminine but nothing crazy one thing led to another. We had sex the first time it was just a bj he was amazed at my thickness and size but he did not swallow jerked me off only … later led to anal with condom then no condom we were fucking almost everyday .. until one day I asked him to swallow my cum but he refused I never let him fuck me so I told him is it because don’t let you cum he was kinda like well yeah so I told him well ok fucke me but he had a small penis maybe 3 inch at best and could not get off since I have a big butt this was a turn off so I went for it I sucked him off until he came in my mouth I kiss him and rejected me I was upset I did not understand he would take my full loads up the ass but not swallow it I would swallow him like nothing couple of slurps and he would cum … we stopped for a bit he contacts me again promises he would eat all of it. I was so excited all young and dumb I showed up we kissed we played with each like we would before but I noticed he was super drunk and had been drinking I hate drunks and he knew this but I guess he needed the courage he proceeded to give me the worst bj in my life so I get up lay him down with his head over the beds edge and I proceed to face fuck him and unleashed all the cum I could it came out his nose he gagged got up ran to the restroom and threw up i never saw him after that bet if could just swallowed I would stayed with him forever.