First experience with a guy

I went to an airport to drop family off as they were travelling. I was only 18 at the time, straight, and never considered having fun with guys, as it never was my thing. I went to the toilet, and it was quite busy, so I resulted into using a cubicle to urinate, instead of the urinals. After closing the door, I was a message written on the back of the door saying “Guy sucks cock, very discrete and no need to worry if you’re partnered. Clean of STD’s and regularly tested” along with an email address. I loved getting head, so it made me feel a type of way. I remembered a gay guy at work telling me one time that guys suck cock better than girls, because they know how it feels. So I thought there’s no harm in trying, especially if there will be no ties. I took a picture of the message, carried on with my day. After taking the picture, I couldn’t stop thinking about trying out a guys mouth. I was too nervous to message the guy, but also couldn’t get the thought out of my head. I would much rather have this experience with a stranger rather than someone I know, as it could be very awkward afterwards if I knew the person who sucked my cock. After about 2 weeks, I decided to email him. I created a separate email address and thought that if I didn’t enjoy the experience then I could always discard of the email address to lose ties with the guy. Easy get away, and no one will ever know, unless I speak of it. The guy was really nice, and invited me to meet him near his house, to give me the opertunity to walk away if I changed my mind after meeting him. He sent me a face picture before I met him for my reassurance, but didn’t ask me for one in return. That made me feel comfortable to meet him. After meeting him, the conversation was a little awkward for me, as I’ve never talked to someone about it, but he was straight forward and made it simple for me by asking if I felt alright with going for a walk (obviously back to his). So we went back to his, and he told me to just get comfortable. I was so nervous, and never been naked in front of another guy, let alone being naked alone with a guy in a private room. So I told him to put lesbian porn on the laptop (my favourite porn till this day) to try and get me in the mood. It still didn’t work. So the guy told me that he can leave the room for a bit so it gives me an opportunity to feel like I’m alone, having a wank to my favourite porn. So he left, I rubbed myself and got hard, then pull my cock out and stroked it slowly. He came back in quietly and sat next to me, just watching me. He told me that when I’m ready, I could guide his hand or head to my cock if I’m comfortable. I thought it was the perfect opportunity to not think about anything and just feel his mouth on my cock and grabbed his head and pushed it to my cock. He licked it up and down the shaft, licked around the helmet with his long tongue and then opened his mouth wide to get the whole cock in his mouth before wrapping his lips around it and suck for England! His head game was good, but every-time it crossed my mind that a bloke is sucking me, I got nervous and went a little limp. So I watched the lesbian porn and didn’t pay any attention to him to stay rock hard in his mouth! He enjoyed sucking cock, but I’m not a quick cummer, and he got so turned on from it that he wanted more from me. He asked if I could stroke his cock while his pants are still on, which turned me completely off. I instantly went limp after he mentioned that, which ruined my experience overall. He told me to at least try it because it might make me hard again. So I did try it, but felt disgusted for some reason, and ended up having to end the night without cumming. That experience left me a little trauma, so I wasn’t sure if I’d meet another guy again. But about 6 months later, I thought I’d give it another go with someone else with strict guidelines. Since then, I’ve got bj’s from many guys and love it!