A Journey of Self-Discovery and New Connections

My first time.
I had looked at gay porn and was intrigued but I was married and allway thought of it as fantasy.
I continued this till I was 32. But then she cheated and we got divorced.
I started exploring the old craigslist ads but was to scared of someone finding out. So I just watched more porn. Fantasized as I read the ads and jacked off.
I got fired from my job because the divorce had my head messed up and I drank a lot then.
I found a job an hour from home and moved closer . I didnt know anyone.
The apartment I moved in had 2 men living next to me. I assumed they were just room mates until one night I heard them fucking. There was no doubt they were fucking. I turned everything off and listened to them.
After that night. I listened every time they fucked.
That put the passion in me to be with another man. I started reading about the gay sceen in my area.
I read of a theater where men hooked up. The first time there I was shocked at how open everything was. I went exploring the halls of the place and found private booths. I stepped in and watched some porn. I got my self off. And left.
I went back again. Getting used to the place and being observant.
The 3rd time. I was ready.
I set in the theater watching guys mingle and get sucked off. I wanted a cock but to scared to ask.
A guy came and set 2 seats from me. He dropped his pants and started strocking his cock. As he stared at me. And I stared at him strocking. He signaled me to set next to him. I did. He asked if I wanted to strock him. I took his cock in my hand and was amazed by it. I felt disgusted but turned on. I didnt want to be caught.
He asked me to suck it. I figured between the seats, no one will see me. Boy was I wrong!
I looked around. Slide to the floor. I remember I didnt want to get my pants dirty.
I licked his head and started sucking his cock. He was so hairy, his pubs rubbing my face. I didnt like it. He wanted me to lick his balls. But I felt like I was eating a mouthful of hair.
Guys started getting closer and was watching as the crowded around they were playing with there cocks.
I lost my nerve and told the guy I didnt like all these guys around. I stood up and walked out to the halls. I was turned on. I sucked my first cock for 10 minutes. But disgusted with all his thick hair. (To this day I dont like it).
I roamed the halls for a few minutes making eye contact with every guy that walked past me.
One of the private booths opened up. I hurried in there. I pulled my pants down and was thumbing threw the porn to watch, when my door swung open. I forgot to lock it in my hurry to get inside.
It was a guy I passed in the hall several times. He looks at me sitting on the stool with my pants around my ankles and a hard dick. He stepped closer and took ahold of my cock. Neither one talking. He got down and started sucking my cock. He was so talented. I was ready to cum in a minutes. I didnt want to cum so fast. I asked his to stop for a minute. I told him it was my first time.
He stood and dropped out of his pants. He pulled my hand to his cock. He wasnt very hairy. I strocked him, he stepped between my legs. Rubbing our cocks together and we strocked in front of each other.
I stepped back and got to my knees. I started sucking his cock and licking his balls. I was enjoying this cock. He let me suck it for awhile before he gently held my head and started fucking my mouth. I couldnt get enough. I was so turned on. I wasnt good at it. But he was patient and didnt complain. He finally said he was going to cum. Giving me a warning.
I thought he could cum in my mouth and I would spit it out.
But he shot and shot. By this 3rd shot. I gagged and swallowed most of it.
It was salty and slimy but not as bad as I expected.
He dropped and started sucking my cock again. I lasted about a minute as I was extremely excited.
He swelled it all like it was nothing.
He stepped to the door and thanked me. I was hooked