Navigating a Taboo Age Gap Relationship

i love fucking her .its the best and even bettery that i truly care about her because she is a good woman == our relationship would be viewed as taboo because she is twice my age but i love it ...........well here is the issue ............wierd problem and concern for me and she doesnt deserve it but im a nymph ,total sex freak and itcomes on at random times of the day i imagine doing every str8 , gay , bi thing and it drives me nuts so i chat and flirt and sext online no harm no foul i know its not right but its suffises sometimes except like right now when i would like a vibrator and a vaccumm and a extra laarge bottle of baby oil and get soaked up and play with myself lol comment if you wanna hear more and ill continue