A Second Chance with My Trans Girlfriend

I got another chance yeah! I am a older white chub bottom daddy with a tiny limp dik so i cant please a woman any more so now i only date black guys and black trans with BBC my preference, i just think white dicks are gross and too small like mine unless ur another sissy then a lil limpy is cute. AND why do white guys send pics of their lil linp dicks? Nobody wants to see that dude lol. Anyway my BBC trans GF is giving me another chance i dont know why because i was a wimp and i couldnt take her hard cock pounding me and i tapped out last time Uggg. We laid in be and i put her cock head in my entrance but she said forget it. I was so disappointed disgraced bcuz i couldnt get her cum in me. She is huge and thick and so hard like concrete dildo slamming my hole doggy style. She luvs to slam it all in and all out over and over for an hour i swear. I try to relax and poppers help but by the time she cums my hole is purple with bruises from her plowing me open. I'm usually screaming or begging or crying for her to please cum and thats usually when she laughs at me lol. She likes to see me suffer i think because she controls my sex and my orgasm. I can cum 5 times sometimes when she is in me and she controls my orgasms. So obviously i am on probation so i must be on my best behavior. I plan to dress slutty for her and wear some pretty perfume she likes and shave my whole body and lotion up especially my titties and butt cheeks. I plan to give her good deep oral but thats another thing i dont control. She will grab my head and force her cock down my throat until i stop gaging or sometimes if she is soft i get to suck it until it grows in my mouth and i try to swallow her gulping her cock head until it goes down all the way, she luves that lol but it still ends up her face fucking me until i am covered in spit. This is the time she always make me bend over the ottoman and she wont let me have a butt plug or ant lube or even spread my cheeks, she wants it tight and dry for the friction i guess but i never asked i just do what she wants. I know it will hurt im sure but i am determined to stay in position this time. She dont like me to move cuz im used to bouncing on it but she says let her do all the work. It make me feel like a sex toy or a masturbator that she uses to cum in so of course i luv that. So i promise take it this time until she is done i pray. It has been 2 weeks since she came in me last time and we did fool around twice since but she diidnt cum so it should be a good one. I will let you guy know how I made out even if i fail again but i will try better guys. I will post the story after i see her and get my reward that i so crave.