Rediscovering Connection After Loss

Starting over. I'm 58 ,a widow. My husband passed away about two years ago. I'm about 5'3, a little chubby around 155 and a 40DD-30-38, short Blonde hair, top and bottom 😏. Our house had been paid for years ago, our children grown and and their own in different parts of the country. We had always enjoyed a very active sex life, just ourselves and sometimes threesome's. Sometimes us and another guy, sometimes another woman, so I wasn't completely straight. I missed him, but I was also missing the touch of another man and a woman. Between his pension, my retirement and our investments, I was doing quite well. I volunteered three days a week at an animal shelter, just for something to do, plus I loved animals. I had been raised on a farm when I was younger and we had all kinds of animals. I working one day and overhead a couple of younger girls talking. They were giggling and comparing stories about how they hooked up on something called DL. I know I shouldn't have, but I listened for a few minutes. They made it sound easy to find something fun and exciting. When I got home I decided to take the chance and browse through it. At my I wasn't sure if I would interesting to anyone. I was in the couples section, I guess because I missed the excitement of the threesome's we used to have. I came across one that really caught my attention. Older couple late 50's Looking for another woman close to their age. It said they lived on ranch and wanted someone to share their life. Move in, hopefully be interested in a Polyamory relationship with them. They said they weren't Ken and Barbie, both a few extra pounds. I thought it for awhile. I loved animals, a ranch would be nice. They were about my age, so the drama level would be low. If we clicked, a poly relationship would be great 😃. I mean an open threesome without having to sneak around and hide it, like we had in the past. I replied with a pic and basic information. I asked them , if they were interested in me, if we could do a trial basis. I didn't want to sell my house on a whim. They responded the day. They said understood completely. A trial basis would be better, that would give everyone a chance to get to know each other and see if it would work for everyone. We exchanged several emails and numbers. I told them I would have to take of a few things first. They said that was fine, they wanted me to feel comfortable about coming. I talked with my neighbors, which we had known for years. I explained I going of town for awhile. They said no problem they would keep eye on the house. He always done my lawn work when he did theirs so no problem. All my bills were direct pay, so all my mail was usually junk mail. They said they would hold anything that looked important and throw away the junk. I said great. If it's anything important, just call me. They looked at me , Oh I'm not going on a cruise or anything, just visiting a friend's a few hours away. I just didn't want to have drive back and forth every couple of days. Oh we don't blame you for that. Enjoy yourself and have some fun. We haven't seen you this excited about anything since Harry passed away. You deserve this. I said I guess you're right, I haven't been anywhere or done anything since he passed. I called them that night and said I had taken care of everything. They said wonderful come on out whenever you're ready. I said how about this weekend. They said fine. I finished the last day at the shelter and told them I was going to be gone for a while. They said no problem, when I got back they could still use my help. I got home and started packing. A few nice dresses just in case we all went out, but mainly shorts, tank tops and jeans. It was a hot summer, Hell what am I saying, It's always hot in Texas In the summer time. I googled the address just to make sure. They were right. They were only a couple of hours away, just outside of Waco. Part 2.