Almost too much

I'm not a gay man, just a bi guy who's only had sex with men for the last15years. This happened just recently. I hadn't met with a guy for almost two years and got a message from a man on DL. He was a top and from the first I let him know that I wasn't into being fucked and wasn't into abuse but just wanted to meet some men who liked getting really nice blowjobs. Online he was very aggressive and when I came over wanted me to call him daddy and told me he liked spanking the cocksuckers he used. I kept telling him that I wasn't into that stuff and just wanted to come by and suck him off so finally he told me he understood what I was looking for and I was so hot and horny to feel and taste a cock again that I suppressed my fears and went over. As soon as his door shut I opened his belt and pants and one hand was on his ass cheek as the other was squeezing his swelling tool. He stepped out of his pants and then led me to the living room and we'd hardly said a dozen or so words when I was between his legs lowering my face into his hairy crotch. He was calling me names right away and telling me what a nasty slut I was and what a cock hungry faggot I was being so eager to let him fuck me in my mouth. He quickly was pushing it hard and deep into me and I was gagging as soon as his shaft entered me and he hardly let me breathe as he kept it pushed in as far as he could. He kept saying nasty things to me and that we both knew what a nasty cock slut I secretly was coming to his home ready and eager to have sex with him. He started to slap my ass a few times as we got into a rhythm of him pushing his cock into me as I relaxed my jaw and squeezed and licked his shaft and I almost asked him to not hit me so hard when I could feel that he was close to cumming and then he was growling and grunting and gripped my head tight and his cock was hard and deep into me as I tasted his thick warm cream. He'd been a little rough with me and had been more aggressive than I liked. Almost abusive at times which is a turn off for me. He'd sent me pics of his cock and I liked the look of it. But when I was on my knees between his legs he felt a bit longer than the pic and it definitely felt much thicker. So later when I got home I realized I'd enjoyed being a slut for him and sort of liked how aggressive he'd been with me. I think I'll go visit him again soon